The timeline is speeding up.
The single video on Yadidya that I was required to make was this one.
61 weeks down….. 3 to go
Obviously the practical means to success are beyond my ken at this time.
What is within my power is Ahava.
I will use completely secular language to describe what I mean.
If I believe that Reality/The-Universe/My True Father wants me to succeed my ken will enlarge.
Please encourage me. Due to ADHD, a touch of autism, and an odd upbringing in the shadow of the Holocaust I do not trust The Systems of the World to be friendly to me.
You already know that I love and trust people. I am the one and only Rabbi in Egypt during a time when Egyptians are predisposed to hate Jews perhaps more than ever before. And yet, I trust them to be good to me, an open rabbi, and they have been.
It's the Social Systems that I regard as both unfriendly and immoral.
It's also myself that I distrust.
All World Changing accomplishments have been done by men who farted, picked their nose, and were naked under their clothes. But in most instances they were done by people who were viewed as demigods by their followers.
Let me admit here that the prime thing keeping me from allowing my followers to see me that way (as thousands of people I have met have wished they could) is that I fear it.
I am just a human being. Admitting that, loudly and often, absolves me. Hiding it places pressures upon me that I don't believe I can (or perhaps even should) live up to.
I am not sufficiently in love and trust with my Creator and Sustainer that there is a way for me to succeed in being his tool in our world without personally suffering for it.
What you can do for me is reassure me that I can succeed in reaching and convincing the world, in a manner that is wonderfully good, not only for others but for myself as well.
My Rabbi, Rab Noach taught me all this.
And with only 3 weeks left before us I believe that THIS is where I can use the most help.
To truly want to succeed because I believe that I can and that it will be lovely.
If you see it, please help me see it.
As “new age” as it sounds, this is the tradition I received from my Rabbi, who received it in a direct prophetic line going back to Abraham.
If you can convince me that I can and will succeed you will be accomplishing a TRULY GREAT thing.
Thank you,
Moshe
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I genuinely need your insight and optimism.
Thank you.