About Me
I last posted over 2 weeks ago.
Not because I’ve been lazy or don't have very important things to say or the urge to say them, but because, some 5 years ago I was called back onto the field and told that Free Living would no longer be allowed me because I had a responsibility to reach out to God’s other children and to share what little I knew.
I had heard the call before. In fact, my Jonah-like escape from the call had last been delivered to me in Tarshish. But my eyes were closed, my heart afraid, my mind steadfast and my decision made. For the ways of the other men and women (i.e. Society) are loathesome unto me and like Rambam relays to us (Deot 6:1) ‘tis better to live among the thistles than among a humankind so very dangerously mad.
But the call I heard loud and clear was that “you make leave Society alone, but Society will never leave you alone, so you may as well have a go at fulfilling your every desire to live as beautiful a life as you can through engaging society and offering humankind enlightenment and salvation”.
But enough discussion of such heavy matter, let us return to the present. Over the past few weeks I have written multiple articles and recorded multiple videos. However, after years of following the call I’ve gone half mad trying to figure out why it hasn't been amplified, heard and acted upon. And this madness has led me to think. To ask for advice. To seek knowledge. To learn. To introspect. And to take my mission (if not my life) very very seriously.
Well, it is Erev Shabbos, a few hours to Sabbath, and as the snake bites my heart over and over again, bidding me perfect and publish the already-written-and-recorded articles and videos I bid him fuck himself.
Yes, the calling has called and, like my namesake Moses, I do not understand why when “I looked around and saw that there was no one else who was going to do what had to be done” and thereby acted…. nothing happened. Nothing really great anyway.
But there are times to ignore the calling. Am I The Man most likely to end the endless disgusting murders ongoing nearby? And the paranoias and misunderstandings keeping us all from living beatific lives in a beatific society? I am that person.
Is it utterly insane that nobody has stepped forward to grant me the…. well, enough of that. I can feel the snake bite. He won't trick me again.
So here is a failure of a video. No thinking went in to it and no goals are expected of it.
It's the sweetest truth I know and I hope you enjoy it's sweetness too.
And if you do, please help me silence the snake within by funding me.